‘Survivor’s Remorse’ needs some awareness, like, now …

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Recently “Survivor’s Remorse,” a show that airs on the STARZ TV network, had some dialogue which was quite belittling of anyone with a cleft lip and cleft palate.

The terms “fucked-up mouth” and “snaggleteeth” and “weird lips” were used to describe people like me.


I’m not sure what the point behind the writer’s words were. If they were trying to do their best “shock jock” type of vignette, then they succeeded.

Yes, you want to see the clip don’t you?

This comes via Facebook as posted by Rya Medassist:

There, you can see it for yourself.

I do want to let the producers and actors in “Survivor’s Remorse,” as well as those in charge at STARZ, that people like me with cleft lips and cleft palates have overcome a lot in our lives. We are brave, talented and gifted people. In fact, one of the stage and screen’s best actors ever — Stacy Keach — was himself born with a cleft lip or cleft palate or both. He’s done pretty damn well in front of the screen and in front of live audiences for a long, long time.

My intention in writing this post is to raise awareness, though. I am not writing this to wag my finger in your faces. I just want you all to know that there are people, real people, who have come a long way to simply live and, yes, breathe.

I make an open offer to any producer or actor involved with “Survivor’s Remorse” to reach out to me and have a conversation. Of course, I realize it is simply television and you are just doing a show for entertainment purposes. Take a minute … like, one minute … and consider what words you do write into the show. As a writer myself, I can appreciate the creative process … but at the detriment of 1 in 600 children who are born with a cleft lip or cleft palate daily?


Thanks for reading this.

To the international cleft and craniofacial community … just know that you are loved right where you are as you read this. Every minute counts, and you are loved.


Joe Rutland

Host, “CleftCast”



What do you want out of life?

Before running off to the hills and really scratching your head to see if this has ANYTHING to do with the facial difference community … just breathe.

It’s important that you ask this question of yourself. What do you want out of life? This life that you and I roll along through every day was meant to be enjoyed and not endured. Hell, everyone of us in the cleft/craniofacial/facial difference community has endured a lot. Children, adults, parents, guardians … you name it. Fear, anger, joy, sadness, loss, grief, laughter and ambivalence all crop up in the emotional register of our hearts.

Yet you have a golden opportunity, no matter what your age, race, creed, color, religious or non-religious persuasion, or whatever, to totally rewrite the script of your life.

What do you want out of life? Let us sit with this question. No … I mean it. You sit with it, I’ll sit with it. We’ll come up with our own answers. Then, see if there is a little, tiny action that can be taken in that direction. More love, more peace, more prosperity, more satisfaction … it’s all for the getting.

Just ponder the question.



Smile a little more …

While it is difficult at times to smile, whether it is because of dealing with surgeries, life issues or difficult emotions, there is something warm and compassionate toward yourself when it comes to smiling.

It is something that I have a hard time doing in my life because I do have a tendency to take everything so seriously. A number of weeks ago, I had a chance to be around a couple that held a special balance between having fun and being responsible. They could laugh with their kids while also maintaining a sense of handling moments that would cause others to stress or freak out.

They laughed a lot, too.

In this facial difference world, there’s always so damned  much to be serious about. Yet I do know that parents and children alike do their best to find moments of happiness.

I’d just like to encourage all of the children, adults and parents within the cleft, craniofacial and facial difference community around the world to … hopefully … smile a little more today and every day.

Happiness is important. It’s not something to throw out the door or forget about. Not in the least. You are as just as deserving of happiness as myself. We’ve been through our tough roads and journeys. Give yourself a break and smile, feel happy and know that you are loved.

Blessings and peace,


An update … please read …

Hi friends …

Thanks for your continued support of the cleft, craniofacial and facial difference community in the United States and around the world.

It has been quite a while since I have posted anything on this blog. Life, for me, has been a myriad of ups and downs in the past few months. What I have been through has humbled me … a lot … and left me learning more life lessons along the path.

I’ve relocated back to my home state of Texas, where I am working at a job now. I’m in a gypsy-ish mode now, too, and have not landed in an actual new home or apartment as of this writing. There have been many, many people who have been most gracious to me during this time. Their support and care is not forgotten on my end at all.

As for “CleftCast,” no, I have not forgotten about it either. Through my travails, it just has not been done. My intention is to get a new podcast up this month (July 2015) and then be back in the routine of posting them on a weekly basis.

For now, that’s about it. I believe that it would behoove me to take some of my own medicine and remember that every minute does count and, like you, I am loved.

Blessings and peace,


Never give up on yourself …

There are times that everyone goes through some piece of life.

Whether it is getting another surgical procedure, seeing another doctor, having a test at school or — God forbid — dealing with a bully, we all have those times that are just too much to bear.

Yet I want to offer all of us a chance to breathe, hope and look at the other side of the picture.

It’s pretty dark right now … yet sunshine is about to break through.

Give yourself the gift of smiling today.

Every minute counts … and you are loved.



New Product: “How To Observe Your Child’s Emotions” e-book available …

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Greetings everyone!

I have some truly exciting news to share with you all.

I’ve just launched a new e-book titled “How To Observe Your Child’s Emotions.” It is available right now at Cool Cat Training, a website that’s dedicated to trainings revolving around child development and baby development issues.

This e-book will offer parents of children ranging from infancy through 3 years old six steps by which they can gauge not only their child’s emotional state but theirs, too.

This is the first of a series of e-books dedicated to this as it will follow along the lines of what I have been sharing on “CleftCast” over the past year.

At the site, you also will be seeing videos, new material, new e-books and books over time.

I’d welcome anyone to head on over to Cool Cat Training today and pick up a copy of “How To Observe Your Child’s Emotions.”

Thanks for all of your support. It truly means a lot to me.

Every minute counts … and you are loved.

Blessings and peace,


I Can Smile and You Can, Too

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This is the text of a speech that I gave recently at the Ahwatukee Kiwanis Club in Ahwatukee, Arizona. Many thanks to all of the Kiwanians that were present and quite kind. I’m available for speaking engagements across the Phoenix area and elsewhere.


It all started after my freshman year in high school. I went to have my final reparative facial surgery done, and ironically it happened on the day that actor John Wayne died in 1979.
So I went into the operating room at a Houston, Texas hospital and had the work done. When I came out, I did not see my face in the mirror for three days. Good thing because when I did, I looked like I was in a street fight with Floyd Mayweather Jr. … and I definitely lost.
Needless to say, my face was swollen from the work done around my nose and lips. I left the hospital four days after the surgery and my mom and I drove back to Beaumont, Texas, where I was raised. It is about 80-90 miles east of Houston.
Now I had to go back and visit my plastic surgeon, who was a really good man and took care of me. Upon the initial post-op visit (as I remember it), he checked me out and said everything looked pretty good … except for some additional skin around my upper lip. He suggested doing an in-office procedure that would reduce the size of my upper lip. I said “OK” and, again as I remember it, Mom and I drove back to Beaumont only to return a week later for the procedure.
I sat up in a chair and one of his assistants came in and numbed my upper lip. I could not feel anything. Before anything happened, though, the plastic surgeon did explain what was going to take place. He was going to use an electric implement to burn away this excess fatty tissue. He let me know what would happen and that there would be some stitches, which would come out later.
OK fine … and so the procedure started. Yep, it started … and I felt absolutely nothing around my upper lip. Here’s the catch, though. Nothing was done to prevent my nasal passages from picking up the scent of the procedure. In other words, I could smell my own skin being burnt off from my lip. In fact, I remember even seeing a couple of smoky wafts pass by my eyes.
I was 14 years old at the time.
Now the reason I share this story with you is not to gross you out. I share it because there were definitely some emotions and feelings rumbling around my stomach. I felt nauseated and frustrated. I know this much. Upon leaving the plastic surgeon’s office, I told my mom that I didn’t want to have any more surgical procedures done at all. She said OK and that was that.
I have not had any further procedures since then … yet that memory … and those feelings and emotions … are quite present with me in this moment as I share my story with you.
Why is this important? Because many people with facial differences, including cleft lip, cleft palate and craniofacial anomalies, have to deal with feelings and emotions on a regular basis.
Anger, fear, sadness, frustration, loneliness, happiness, joy, bliss, serenity … you name it. All of them rumble around inside the hearts and souls of children, adults and parents.
One in three children around the world are born each day with a facial difference. While there are opinions all over the place about how this happens and a few even connect a certain medication to these births, no hard-and-fast evidence has been produced to singularly say that “this” is how children are born with these facial differences.
Many organizations that are international in scope do incredible work by providing surgical procedures in foreign countries. Children and adults who never have had the pleasure of fully smiling brightly now can do so thanks to these organizations and groups.
Let me share this story from a well-known international organization called Smile Train. I’m not affiliated with the group personally, yet I do honor the work that it does around the world:
“When Lackson Koliesa was born, his mother Joyce was devastated when she saw that he had a cleft lip. Joyce learned from an early age how kids and adults treated people who look differently and she knew the suffering that lay ahead for her sweet boy.
Joyce was from a large family, including an uncle with a cleft lip. “My uncle had a cleft lip and was called an ‘ogre’ by people in the village. When we walked down the streets kids used to scatter whenever they saw him, they all had their harrowing theories on why he had a cleft lip,” Joyce recalls.
Joyce tried as best as she could to get her son’s cleft lip fixed. But her hopes dwindled as time went on. She couldn’t afford to pay for a reparative surgery for her son and she thought Lackson was in store for the same future as her uncle.
When she learned of Smile Train and the free surgeries local Smile Train surgeons help provide, she finally found her answer. She embarked on a four-hour-long journey from her town in Solwezi to Ndola. Joyce was filled with uncertainty the entire trip, wondering if her son would receive the free surgery. When Joyce and Lackson arrived in Ndola, little Lackson was screened and cleared for surgery.
It frightened Joyce to send her baby into surgery, but when he emerged from the operating room less than an hour later, she knew she’d made the right decision. Lackson will never have to suffer the way her uncle did.”
That is quite a success story indeed.
Yet what about the emotional effects of having facial differences? What about living year after year, day after day, with people staring and looking at us like we’re some ogres from another planet, as was just mentioned in the story? It happens. Even parents whose children are, thankfully, in good health and look facially OK, seemingly will let their kids pick on or bully those who have facial differences.
It is quite hard to find safe spaces where those in the cleft and craniofacial community can healthily express their emotions. Even smiling can be a challenge … not merely because of the facial differences themselves, but there also are other health-related issues that prove difficult, too.
The reason that I speak out about the emotional aspect so much is that I believe it gets short circuited. I mean that those who feel their feelings may not be in a great place to express them openly. Consider those who live in Third World countries … even Latin America and Central America. Some cultures where children like me are born seem to be under the misguided belief that we are “Satan’s spawn” and “children of the devil.” No, it really is true. Family members will make sure that we are hidden in the back of homes or shunned when even seen in public.
Really? Tell me. Do you think that leads to healthy self-esteem, no matter what language or culture it is in?
Even here in the United States, as advanced a nation as we are in spite of our similarities and differences on many issues, people will tend to just see people like me as “less than.”
It’s baloney. It really is and I’ll tell you why.
I can smile and you can, too.
Now my smile might not be like yours, yet I can smile and you can, too.
Have you ever given yourself an opportunity to truly smile at a sunset, a sunrise, gazing upon your wife, husband or partner, your child?
When was the last time you felt your own feelings and emotions? Yours … not someone else’s?
I can smile and you can, too.
Consider the fact that there are many muscles within the human face. Our emotions can engage the face to either smile or frown. Are there exceptions? Yes, if a person has been through a stroke.
What are you feeling right now? Do you know? Are you aware enough to identify them?
This is a bit embarrassing to admit publicly, but I never really got in touch with any of my own emotions until I was nearly 40 years old. I’m 50 now.
Take time to write out what emotions kick up inside you today. There are no right or wrong answers.
In doing this little exercise, you will be able to tap into an infinite stream of emotional well-being that lies within you. The same stream that lies within every single person in this room.
Now you can call me a little nutty in my belief around the connection between emotions and feelings and how they can affect the facial difference community.
Yet there is simply no getting around it that your emotions and feelings affect YOU. They really do.
Are you going to take time to smile a little more today? Or continue to let others’ attitudes derail whatever you have planned?
Let me offer three suggestions that can help all of us smile a little more today.
1) Try a little tenderness. Just like the old Otis Redding song, it is OK to let a little tenderness in your own heart and share that with another person. There is something magical when it happens.
2) Stand in another person’s shoes. Metaphorically speaking, of course. Yet if someone is really getting your goat or upsetting you, then try standing in their spot and see what emotions stir up for you. Maybe it is not the other person who is upsetting you so much but YOU.
3) As hokey as it sounds, love can heal a lot. The emotion of love simply stands head and shoulders above hate, fear, guilt, shame and loneliness. Those in the facial difference world have dealt with these hardened emotions for a long, long time. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if all of us — and I mean myself as well — loved a little more than trying to “beat out” that other person … our perceived enemy.
With the world of facial differences, there are people thirsty for love. Thirsty for acceptance. Thirsty for a smile.
I believe these are all possible. If you will carry inside your heart today that “I can smile and you can, too,” then observe how many people become infected — in a positive way — by your emotional state.
This is not impossible. It is quite possible … and it all simply comes from your own heart.
As I leave you today, hold on to that smiling thought.
Always remember … every minute counts … and you are loved.
Thank you.